makabuluhang usapan at ang paraiso

mabuti pa ang mga impromptu lakad natutuloy. mangilan-ngilang attempts din ang sinubukan namin ni donna para magkita. at finally this is it... nagkita rin kagabi pagkatapos nyang asikasuhin ang baby nya hehe...

since matagal-tagal ang papatayin kong oras, sabi ko makahanap ng library. stick my nose in a book or two - yesss corny ba? bakit ba? this is my trip. pero mukang natakot ako maghanap kse baka maligaw ako hehehe... buti na lang busilak ang puso ni janise. sinamahan nya muna ako. chumika muna kami sa bonsai garden. the same garden we so desperately searched for during our first day. awww memories.

ayun naupo kami sa gitna ng hardin - na amoy incense (either that or jebs). nag-usap about love life. hehe. that's life. realizations, thoughts, ayos, airport moments, how much some people are willing to give it another chance... and another one after the another... and another one... sigh. if only things are running how you want them to... but that's not life. that probably is paradise and paradise is in heaven, not earth. whatever happened to heaven by your side... hmmm...

so time check, time to meet donna. byebye chumy janise. thanks for the good conversation.

hello, donna. kain sana kami sa new york new york kaya lang 1 mile ang pila e patay gutom na kami. lipat kami sa aming first-date spot - thai express. chow = baby squid, at some gulay in oyster sauce. yum.

okray... maraming okray... yun lang hehe... hindi naman. maraming boy talk. kung bakit sila ganun, hindi ko na talaga maipapaliwanag. hehe. it's a common denominator. boys will be boys and girls will be girls. alter some bits and pieces and again, it will come down to "but that's not life". :-) fine.

"you've had your chance and you didn't grab it". yan. magandang theme din ito (pwedeng pang formal theme writing nung high school). :-) di ba? pagkatapos ng lahat you just shake your head and tell yourself, bakit ba hindi ko pa kinuha nung may pagkakataon pa ako. mwehehehe. well... wala lang. sorry na lang sa ating mga taong nagkamali ng pinili. baka sa paradise, tama na lahat ng decisions natin hehe.

life is good with great friends. :-) almost as good as paradise if you come to think of it.

solitude

this world is full of chaos, full of shame. you hardly have space to do what you have to do. it's hard, almost impossible, to find a silent, peaceful spot for you and you only. and when you find that sacred place of peace, what do you do? you hold on to it as if it's yours. it may not be yours at all moments, but at certain moments of need, you know you can have your share of serenity and secrecy and privacy and hush. and then you can act freely and do everything you can to make you feel good and relieved. get rid of everything that's negative!

sa 4th floor. ok ang cr dito. walang tao palagi. hehehe!

maybe

it's better this way...
maybe not...
who knows?

i love my job

gets my mind off things…

thank God for ears and lips

for the past few days, there is an ongoing battle. the war within isn't over yet... and won't be over soon. both leagues are not showing any sign of white flag. wit, sarcasm, pity, almost hatred, love, unanswered questions, frustration, sadness, fear, deceit, doubt, pain, hope. name it, the feeling is probably there... all these except happiness. at least not for now.

if there's one thing i pray for, it is courage. courage to face tomorrow even without the light you're accustomed to see. i pray i will be like the blind. he does not see the sun but knows that it is there just because he can feel the warmth. he has the wisdom to understand that the absence of light doesn't necessarily mean that warmth is hiding beneath the clouds as well.

at the end of this day, i thank God for ears and lips... ears that patiently listen to your tales no matter how negative they may sound, and lips that tell you the truth no matter how painful they may make you feel. words you probably don't prefer to hear, but heck they are nothing but the truth and these are all you need to hear :). you see these ears and lips come along with this package most people call friends.