things i'm starting to miss since i walked out that door

my 2nd day out of my comfy (and usually muddled) cube... it's raining hard and i'm starting to be bugged by feelings of longing for some things that have always been "just there" for almost 4 yrs:

how manong guard points me, among others, to use the stairs instead of the ramp. sheesh... i keep on forgetting that ramps are for vehicles and stairs are for people... haha.

how manong or manang lobby guard pretends to inspect my bag for any "materials of terrorism" or maybe, more subtly, just for "gadgets of information storage" to conform with bs799 chuva. in reality, they just seem to poke that antenna-looking thing inside my bag and portray an image of disinterest on whatever is in it.. and yes, i doubt that the garret thing has batteries... hihi

how i scan my id on the proximity reader, wait for the beep, and go in.

on the other hand, when the invalid beep shouts out, all i could do is give out an embarrassed smile and plead for te people inside to swipe their ids and open the door for me. =)

how my pc complains and gives me messages of "low memory chuva. quit some application chuva..." darn it... there are just too many open windows.

lately, how i struggled to find a break mate because there are just too few oldies to accompany you in your break.... and i end up going home to eat lunch or dinner.

my batchmates... all 9 of them: rico, jimboy, thyra, cindy, aileen, maricor, harbs, and downa... how we all jived and clashed (sometimes), but it's a great team...

my risksol SE and QA teammates... all the moments i laughed and cried with them. laughed for countless reasons... cried for reasons i don't even want to recall, but since i'm in a dramatic mood, yeah... i'd love to recall them all.

the company outings... how i ended up being drunk once and throwing up, and clogging the sink. it was hell...

the christmas parties, the endless gimiks to make the exchange gift fun... and they never failed. every event was just hilarious and great.

my nexis teammates... i was one of the newbies in the team... but heck... just heck hehe...

the puzzled look on the newbies' faces when i can't help them out in solving their problems.

and the delighted look on their faces when i was able to somehow help them out.

the weekly conference calls... how jimboy and dq and i will arrange the events so that one will be a bum for the night.

the stress it causes me to create my weekly timesheet

how i update the remaining hours spreadsheet on a monthly basis instead of the weekly frequency hehe.. lousy

the nights i spent in the office - unpaid... to finish off tasks

the pantry... oh... the pantry...

my dear newbies... for the shortest period of time, we've been close... they're all kind and good-hearted. and young hihi... and it makes my day when i see them online and i chat with them =)

pics:

edc people + chris


the feast we shared on patrick's bday (the star phone... geeezzz i'm gonna miss that)


N4 team


with room mate franz and jenny


with patsy


this was the present that made me cry... aww so sweet


N4 team sa work area


N4 team candid (daw)

i'm back

another blogless month has passed... hay... well, now that i'm out of spi, i guess i could blog more... =) yippeeeee!!!

not that i'm happy to be out... in fact i'm sad... that will come in another post.

for now, let me share something weird. dig this:



is it a dancing lizard? hihi... its left hind leg is raised... cute? naaah... weird. yuckie actually.

here's the real image hehe... i just turned the previous one upside down. this shot was taken this morning. my mom showed it to me and it was weird and we don't know how it ended up dying that way. i'm avoiding that area near our stove. what if it falls and it falls on my head?!? yuckieeee... hehe... the last time i checked, it's still there. eeww hehe...



i'm ready to blog again wooohooo!

father pogi gives me a hug

sunday morning... dropped by the parish office before the mass to get the intentions. when i got there, ate rose (parish secretary) was joking with father pogi. they were laughing and joking about birthdays, but i don't have an idea what they were talking about.

to include me in the conversation, father pogi asked me, "how many birthdays do you have?". and i answered, "one". and then... i don't know why he suddenly put his arm around me. una 1 lang and then ni-hug na ako! hihi... i was like, "uy si father pogi to. kakakilig!" haha.

ang daughterly hug binigyan ng malisya... hahaha! kse naman ang pogi talga ni father pogi super! promise!

a premature farewell

the past two weeks has been a whirlwind of change. all of a sudden, i'm engulfed in something new and i never thought something like this will happen this soon.

for 3 years and 9 months, i walked through these halls... and these walls have been silent witnesses to my tears, laughters, bitterness, kalokohan, and all (yup, even my heartbreak and heartmake... heartmake? watda?).

i've tasted just about every weird food there is: dacar, global, and now... something gourmet. but hey, weird isn't always bad and i'm proud to say these rather edible goodies sustained me for years. =)

i've seen how the pantry has evolved from wash-your-mug-by-the-window-and-kill-the-plants-outside to this more sophisticated look-i-have-a-sink-but-alas-there's-no-table-only-two-chairs pantry.

people come and go. and i've been a witness to these wonderful instances.

the coming part is good. new faces, new names, new good deeds to remember, new learnings to gain and share. there are a hundred and one newbies... they actually outnumber us now hihi. they make me laugh, they make me smile. sometimes they make my head ache with questions that i can't answer hihi... because i simply don't know the answer. sorry... =)

the going part is the one that makes me sad... majority of my good friends are gone. over the years, we mourned whenever another good heart leaves mere traces of the best memories we could ever have.

maybe this is the right time for me to go, with everything coming into place so smoothly. i prayed for it... that whatever comes in first is the real gift for me.

i have more than a month to enjoy everything good that's associated with spi... to gather every bit of learning and memory... to enjoy the company of the greatest people i've worked with.

thank you for the gift. may i find equal, if not greater, happiness in this new venture. i know i will with my good friend, maricor, beside me... =)

so cute...

* how you give me that super pouting face... because you waited for 20 minutes under the shed.
* how i defend that "it's just 20 minutes! bakit ang sungit mo?!?!", and you go on ranting and mumbling your whatevers.
* how i remind you that i once waited for over an hour and i didn't complain... and you say, "bakit ka nang-uungkat?!?".
* how we pretend that we fight about it and murmur whispers... but smile deep down inside 'cause we know na nagpapa-cute lang tayo sa isa't-isa hehe.
* and how we just laugh about it.
* how you choose to share your jacket with me under the rain... even though i have an umbrella... just because you find it sweeter hihi... (to snuggle under a jacket instead of an umbrella? hihi)
* how you kurot my arms and legs and bilbil... and i bruise a lot and it's ok and i find it nice. eeewww... weird.
* how i am so "obsessed" (as you said) to make ganti... but i just can't 'cause you cover your bilbil with pillows... at obvious namang you could defend my every attack duh.
* how you are so concentrated while watching tv... and i get bored and i ask you all sorts of questions... and you get annoyed... and i keep on annoying you hehe...
* how i keep on forgetting that you have a cut on your thumb and i keep on pinching it... or biting it... and all you could do is just shout because of the pain... and all i could do is just whisper i'm sorry and kiss your thumb with the hope of warding off the pain... hihi
* how we thumb wrestle. and you invent rules! just because you're stronger than me! argh! daya.
* how i greet you good morning and you tell me... something else, thus the pet name baby-a... duh... parang may baby-b, baby-c ahhh hehe... and how we argue who's baby-a... eeeh... ikaw un!
* how sweet it is to be loved by you... baby-a... =)

my ten-minute baths and katya's not-alone-baths

i'm in 7am-4pm shift for this week... (but last monday, i was here from 7am to 6pm... tuesday, 7am to 1030pm... yesterday, 7am to 6pm hihi watashift). i'm not complaining. well... maybe, yes... 'cause i miss going home on "normal" hours.

i'm not that used to going to work this early anymore and i really can't drag myself out of bed at 6am!!! geez...

i usually have 20-30 minute baths but waking up at 630 can't give me the luxury of having longers baths. anong magagawa ko? edi madaliang shampoo at sabon! sobraaa! sige wala nang conditioner. kakain pa ng oras yun e. it's a good thing i could still scrub a little using a bath towel hihi. darn it.

i'm back on 2nd shift (i think) for the next two weeks. wee! this means longer time for baths =).

speaking of baths, i remember i was watching tv with papa mike last night. we saw katya santos on one channel for an interview of some sort.... aaaah sa nginig. yup. interview for the nginig show... about her experiences with ghosts ata. she said something like "minsan pag naliligo ako mag-isa, mararamdaman mo talga may kakaiba eh". and i was like, "ha? naliligo mag-isa? edi minsan pala naliligo kang may kasama? hehe". and papa mike was like, "oo nga ano!".

ibig sabihin pag may kasama sya maligo, nde sya nakakaramdam ng kakaiba hihi... anobuzz... edi lagi sya maligo with someone. hihi sharing baths with someone. hmmm... sounds good? hmmm...

another paranoia attack (and a lot more)

i've been coughing for a couple of weeks now and i didn't mind it 'cause i've always been sensitive to pollution, yosi usok and the likes. last wednesday, at work, i felt this pain on my right rib when i cough and i realized that heck... i've been coughing for the longest time and i didn't bother to consult a doctor about this. why am i all of a sudden feeling pain on my right rib. i've heard similar stories like this and it turns out they have tb.

ok being the paranoid queen that i am... that night i couldn't sleep, i started recording videos - said my good byes and thank yous to my family and friends. i had a couple of shoots. i didn't like it when i don't smile hihi. mukang may sakit eh. i deleted the videos anyway. i'll just re-shoot when i'm certain of my "sickness"...

thursday, can't take it anymore. took a leave and went to manila doctor's to have myself checked... conversation went:

doc: ano'ng problema?
caths: (freaking nervous) kasi po inuubo ako for a couple of weeks na and masakit yung dito ko (points to my right rib)...
doc: ok. x-ray na lang muna (hands me the x-ray slip).

that's it?!? lalo akong kinabahan. parang sinabi nyang i-confirm natin kung tb ang sakit mo hehe.

at sa kakabahan ko at kawalan sa sarili, tama bang i-offer ko ang dibdib ko sa manong x-ray-man? naman. yung suot ko kasing shirt may glitters sa medyo chest part. he asked, "yung glitters ba na yan may metal?". and i answered, "hindi ko po alam e...". he said, "hahawakan ko ha."... and i was like... "sige po" sabay forward ng chest ko... naman. tanga-tanga ko. natawa si manong... medyo i-forward ko na lang daw yung shirt ko para nde nya mahawakan yung di dapat mahawakan. ay sus... caths! pag disoriented e tanga-tanga! asus. kahiya. edi sana pinakapa ko na rin kung may wire ang bra ko diba?!? naman!!!

the results will be available the next day pa... pero ayoko na mag leave so i decided to go back on saturday (kahapon yun).

what are the other things i thought about while i was on this dilemma? laugh on...

i'll probably take a six-month leave and go to mindoro (lola's house) so i could recover. i heard people heal faster when they live near the sea. of course i'll isolate myself and my stuff so i won't spread stuff i'm not supposed to spread.

i'll probably call it quits with papa mike. don't want to jeopardize other people's health... when i get well, and we still feel the same way for each other, edi go ulit =)

on my way home from the hospital, i saw this lola carrying an x-ray film and she has this mask covering her nose... ano ba tawag dun... dunno. sabi ko... oh no. pag lalabas ako, ganyan na rin ako. naka-mask.

... at kung anu-ano pang kapraningan. asus. ok. saturday na, mom went with me to get the results. derecho agad sa radiology chuva and took the results. with hands trembling and sweating, i opened the results. and it read...

... the lungs are clear. the heart is unenlarged... the chuva are intact.

or something to that extent. wushu. sayang ang effort ko sa pagiging praning. and we went to the doctor ulit for further analysis. he said that my lungs are healthy. my heart's a little tilted but that's no problem daw. and he explained every inch of the x-ray. he showed the blood vessels chuva and my right rib isn't fractured or anything. just a little strained because of the cough. he said that my lower spine's a little curved but no problem pa rin daw un. kse naman e lagi akong naka-slouch.

he prescribed mucosolvan and muscle reliever. watda?!?! ang praning ko talga... sorry!