semi perfect year ender

oh my! Did i have a wonderful new years eve mass!
Serve ko kasi. While waiting for the priest to arrive,
i was joking around with mark and kaye... And i wasnt
really expecting to see puppy love in the church kasi
nga married na sya diba? But just as the mass was
about to start, there he was! Saw him! I guess i just
have this sort of puppy-love-radar thing. He stayed by
the gate - with his wife! Haha! So much for puppy love
gazing! So come procession, i was like mega conscious
while walking diba? Good thing i was seated behind the
belen. That way i didnt see him. And when it was my
turn to read, i didnt exert any effort in trying to
locate him. Bka magkamali pa ko hehe! But the ultimate
moment was during communion! Saw him approaching the
priest. There was this inner battle: to look or not to
look. I looked.. And there he was smiling at me.. Slow
motion moment haha! And i smiled back.. And i figured
he was mouthing happy new year at me. Thats all i
remember. Ok natunaw si caths deders! Hay! Nice year ender!



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make me whole and an excerpt from paolo coelho's eleven minutes

i finished paolo coelho's eleven minutes the other night. riche, thanks for lending me the book! it's a good book. i really liked this text on p. 157... let me quote it:



"Since I was in the company of an intellectual, I would quote from Plato. According to him, at the beginning of creation, men and women were not as they are now; there was just one being, who was rather short, with a body and a neck, but his head had two faces, looking in different directions. It was as if two creatures had been glued back to back, with two sets of sex organs, four legs and four arms.



"The Greek gods, however, were jealous, because this creature with four arms could work harder; wit its two faces, it was always vigilant and could not be taken by surprise; and its four legs meant that it could stand or walk for long periods at a time without tiring. Even more dangerous was the fact that the creature had two different sets of sex organs and so needed no one else in order to continue reproducing.



"Zeus, the supreme lord of Olympus, said: 'I have a plan to make these mortals lose some of their strength.'



"And he cut the creature in two with a lightning bolt, thus creating man and woman. This greatly increased the population of the world, and, at the same time, disoriented and weakened its inhabitants, because now they had to search for their lost half and embrace it and, in that embrace, regain their former strength, their ability to avoid betrayal and the stamina to walk for long periods of time and to withstand hard work..."



ain't it really nice? and hopeful? hehe! and then i heard the song make me whole by amel larrieux and noticed the similarity of the message... let me quote again:





Cause your eyes are the windows to heaven

Your smile could heal a million souls

Your love completes my existence

You're the other half that makes me whole

You're the only other half that makes me whole



You make my dreams

Come true over and, over again

And I honestly truly believe

You and me are written in the stars

I live my whole life through

To giving thanks to you





i don't need to say anything more =)

mood swing

yahoo! this is what i call an authentic mood swing!!! down one day, up the next day! last night before i turned out the lights, i told myself "i'm leaving all the negative vibrations on this 30th day of december... when i wake up tom, i'll be feeling sooo happy!"... and i did just that! woohoo! probably because i don't want to end the year with a broken soul =) so mind over matter really works. the instant i opened my eyes, i feel light =)



watched white chicks this morning with kuya and win... and after 1 million and 1 struggles with yongyong, i met with him and "received" the dvd... where? sa napaka-glamorosong kanto ng sto. niño haha! hehe thanks a lot yongyong! i'll watch it agad since highly recommended mo. although i really like to give you a little something, you didn't give me the opportunity... sabi nang monday na lang eh! to show you how much i appreciate your lending me both ears ALL THE TIME. =) for being the truest friend =)... thanks a lot! who would have thought we'll be good friends? the most absurd way of meeting, eh! ayan ang dami tuloy restrictions! magkape lang di pa magawa hehehe!

down

what's with the 30th? i slept at around 4am and woke up at 11am. seems i lost all my defenses over my sleep.



woke up with a heavy head, running nose, tired body, confused inner self, marred soul, fast-paced heart, anxious system... and i can't think of a justifiable reason why i'm in such a demented state. geez, i've never seen or felt that much negative vibrations coming out of a soul. did i have way too much of the vacation mode? or too much idle time? so a one-week vacation isn't healthy? probably...



whatever it is, i'm hoping i could shrug it all away within this day. i don't want to linger in such an eerie place, where there is an overwhelming level of uncertainty that i really can't contain... i wonder why...

cant sleep

Somehow ive got my days and my nights mixed up. Could
it be the holiday mood? Or maybe ive had too much CB
tales that ive got everything jumbled. Geez! I so want
to sleep... Tossing and turning wont do the trick...
Sigh... Wonder whats keeping me up. I dont remember
taking in any caffeine-containing stuff today.. Hmmm..
Try to close my eyes again..



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here we go...

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emotions:

*anticipating *annoyed *irritated *tired *sleepy but
not sleepy *confused *dazed *worried aah finally! thanks!



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