how will you take it?

hay... i know telling the truth is the RIGHT thing to do... but what if telling the truth would make it impossible for some of the "essential" and "necessary" things to push through? twisting some of the facts would be a remedy, but bending some facts means NOT telling the truth; therefore a lie.

i have no idea how you'll take it, but i guess the bottom line is trust. i know you trust me and i don't want to break this wonderful gift you've given me.

i have two options:

muster a zillion and one tons of guts and say it point blank... give it a shot...
two things could happen:
* you might think it's probably fine and just tell me... go ahead
* you might give me a stern look from head to toe... and just hate me until you forget what i just told you

not divulge too much information. filter some stuff for the good of mankind (yeah convince yourself that it's not a lie... go ahead use some flowery terms! duh!)
two things could happen:
* i'll have it my way woohoo! and you'll never ever know that some things transpired
* you might eventually find (not necessarily seek) the truth and spit on my face ewww... hehe brutal eh! of course, you'll not do that... but you just might.

what to do? what to do? the first option has more weight for me 'cause it's the right thing to do. either of the two is risky, though. i'm on the losing end no matter what hehe. =( sometimes it's just so hard and painful and undesirable to do the right things...

well, i could always delay things... no action, no lie. no lie, no sin hehe! argh!

5am

and i'm still here. i've been here for 16 hours. argh... and i'm still getting a lot or variations in my data! my goodness... i thought there's this word.. hmmm... STANDARD? apparently it's an alien term for some. argh...

thank you for understanding me still... despite the oddness and irregularity of my work-clock (and my body clock just the same) hehe... despite the constant change of plans... and the seemingly snob attitude for your motivations (which are very much super dooper appreciated)... and the weekend-lang-ang-kita-every-two-weeks-kse-2nd-(and-3rd)-shift-ako schedule... thank you for just sighing and uttering, "i understand..." don't ever get tired of it... it's only temporary. what we have "might" last a lifetime =)

and i'm outta here... *yawn... got less than 5 hours to sleep... sana wag ako singilin ng katawan ko someday... huhuhu.

shake it! shake it! hehe =)

hehe... announce ko lang... nood kayo ng star in a million ah... may friend ako dun from lcg... si shake (ardie shane) =) galing na bata yun hehe! napanood tuloy ako ng star in a million. =) woohoo!

nood kayo ah =)

siguro...

pwede ko nang papalitan ang home address ko ng SPI Technologies, Inc., PITC bldg. achuchuchu hihi...

bakit? you may ask... kasi dito na ko nakatira hihi!

for the past week, my life drama has been... wake up at 10am -> go to work -> work like a slave 'til 3am or 4am -> walk home -> sleep -> wake up at 10am... (syempre may constant checks yan... so it's not that bad) gosh... kawawa naman katawan pagod na.

ayan walang patawad, sunday, nasan ako? imbis na nasa bahay at nakatunganga or nakikipaglandian... hihi ayos... andito ako sa SPI Technologies, Inc., PITC bldg. achuchuchu.

mag-isa, walang makausap, walang makapagsabi sakin na... ok lang yan... wlang mumu dito. kasi ang tahimik... so quiet it's freaking me out.

nag reboot pa ang citrix. asus... hello?!?! pano ko matatapos? gusto ko nang umuwi...

* sana saturday na... hehe. wala lang. sana. saturday na =) mwah...

* i can't take it... going home... can't stand the silence... freaking me out.

observations...

first day of work after the long weekend.

newbies --->there are 1 million new employees here at SS sheesh... the new batch is composed of around 30 people ata. wow... we're really growing, huh? i also realized that i've been here for more that three years and the newbies are most probably 3 yrs (+) younger than me. i'm old(er)! hehe! grabe they all look so young!

natipos ako... ---> ya uh! with my new hair cut! i observed that when you request your manggugupit to trim off 3 inches from your hair, they double it! so he slashed off a good 6 inches from my hair. next time, i'll say "trim lang... 1 inch lang..." para 2 inches lang ang bawas hehe.

special day ---> why? you might ask... 'cause today is mommy riche's birthday! happy birthday! hmmm... once a week? that's cool! way too cool! *evil grin...

pouring rain ---> had a rainy dream. super rain! pouring rain talga! iiyak na naman ako? it's probably all in the mind. baka imbis na tears, e more blessings ang uulan. not that i'm asking for more. wag lang sana tears. =)

looking forward ---> to a great week =) and lifetime!

unwell no more + nursing the sick

i'd like to thank my mom for making me well. =) so they do work... honey and calamansi and salabat... those were enough to ward off the evil spirits in me. hehe may sapi pala.

ok. so i had too much rest. that made me well =)... so well!

so... papa mike and i went out to watchamovie na... mr. and mrs. smith. ayos. good watch ito. very good. super funny talga sya, medyo exag pero kakatuwa naman. siguro kahit may sakit pa rin ako, papanoorin ko pa rin to.=)

i'm so glad i'm feeling better now, kaso lang, 2 of the men i love most (in the entire universe) are sick right now... same symptoms. everybody seems to have the same sakit lately. hay naku. now i'm playing the role of nursing the sick... and no... nde ko sila hinawahan ah!

guy A "seems" obedient. told him to drink lots of water and calamansi... done daw. told him to sleep early, ok tulog na raw sya ngayon. pero hmmm... nag sign on as mobile sa ym... so late din pala natulog... argh. bahala ka dyan.

guy B is completely stubborn. i heard he hasn't taken his meds since 4pm e may lagnat na raw sya ng time na yun... so mega cook naman ako ng noodles... tamang-tama, when he woke up, i forced him to eat. ayaw eh =( ni-reject ako. kung di ko lang alam kung gano ka ka-stubborn na tao, ay magtatampo na ko sayo.

get well soon, papa mike (haha pipitikin na siguro ako neto pagtawag ko ng papa mike sa kanya).

get well soon, kuya pogi-nde lang ang physical na weakness, sana pati emotional weakness maging ok na rin...

love you both. =) mwah!

bum and reyna ng praning

ayan... official bum na ako for 2 days. kami ng mom ko. as she said, "grabe 2 araw na tayong nakatiwangwang dito sa bahay. 'di rin pala masaya". and i thought i could last for years just being in the house doing nothing... not working and all.

masarap na nakakabugnot din palang maging bum. promise, bigla na lang umiinit ang ulo ko nang walang dahilan. tatahimik na lang ako and nde magre-react sa kahit anong makita ko. is it because wala akong magawa or... dahil... never mind.

arrrggh... i have monthly posts like this, at hindi sya nakakatuwa. hehe. sabay tawa.

praning... lagi akong praning. tama ba namang isipin ko yun? kaya ako napapagsabihang hindi nakikinig ng lessons nung HS eh... fine. attentive naman ako ah... sometimes.

at kahit anong sabihin, it still is NOT ok... ok? =( na-sad ako promise. i didn't expect that... =(